I wish life were easier for you. I wish your past hadn’t left you so traumatized and hurt that you needed to live in a make-believe land. I wish when I told you I was your Mama forever, you didn’t need to ask me if I would still be here tomorrow. I wish I could erase your pains and make people who hurt you never have entered your life. I wish I was there the day you were born, and it didn’t take you 14 or so homes and institutions to be placed in my arms.
I love you more than life itself. And I’ll be here today to wipe your tears and tomorrow and 50 years from now. You are one of the two bravest souls I know. In the lottery of life, becoming a mother to you and your sister is my winning ticket. It is the greatest blessing, a gift from God I never deserved.
I promise to accept who you are and the scars you were left with, to not focus on the age you are supposed to be, but the soul that makes you who you are. I promise to never question how you got to be the way you are and believe God has the most amazing plan for your life, that the challenges will bring you closer to His glory. I promise to focus on the good, the strides and the love in you. I promise to remember judgements against you, or belief in your limitations by others, is just noise. Noise this Mama can’t hear. I believe you can do and be anything you desire.
I love you more than you’ll ever know. I love you on the days you don’t cry and the days you cry a lot. I love you on the days where good choices come easy and on the days where you need lots of encouragement. I love you on the days you need to be reminded you are loved and on the days you know you are loved. I will love you all the days of my life and beyond. I can’t wait to spend the next 50+ years with you and your sister by my side.
I love you more than all the dinosaurs, chocolate, ice-cream and hearts in the world.
Love, Mummy xo