Today I was thinking about the idea of not being able to spend all your time & thoughts complaining because you are too busy being thankful. And it made me smile. While I do believe accepting grief and admitting challenges is helpful, and needed, I also think that one of the best things you can do is keep hold of the good things, the little moments each day which are beautiful and deserve thanks. So today, that is what I’m focusing on. Today, I’m thankful for:
- A laptop I can borrow a couple of times a week – While I can’t get it to post pictures and I wish there was money to purchase a replacement, I’m choosing to focus on the blessing of a borrowed laptop. It allows me to get some work done from home and write. And the more I do it, the more I realize I do so love to write.
- Free cable - We are screen free during family time, but with the recent move I was given free cable for a year. The teeny, tiny, $5 tv is away from sight, but a couple of times a week when I need some Downton Abbey, Call The Midwife, Doc Martin or Corrie (my guilty pleasure) and the wee ones are in bed, it is turned on.
- A better bedtime schedule - I find my children really need 11 hours sleep a night. Both arrived with serious sleep disorders. My daughter was medicated to sleep and my son slept 4-5 hrs a night maximum for years. I knew there was no way they would be able to learn and grow if we didn’t get the sleep routine down, so for the first 2-3 months that was a major priority. When anxious things can be a tad fractious, but on the whole they sleep exceptionally well. After committing to ensure November was a month of good sleep for us all, I went back to a 7:30 bedtime for both and it is going so well. We’ve had no issues at all and I’m enjoying the extra time to get things done and work. In case you hadn’t guessed, I’m exhausted
- My job – while there are some challenges, and I’d love to be home or doing something which speaks to my soul, I’m very thankful I have a position where I can work from home if I have a sick child, and leave early when needed. I certainly get all my hours in (+++), but being able to work them differently helps so much, even if it means I’m never really away from the office.
- The kindness of blog readers - honestly I get very little adult interaction outside of work. It can be weeks between adult conversations, so lately, all the lovely comments and interaction that has taken place in this space, has meant so very much. Thank you.
- Our house - with no downpayment I still can’t believe it happened. But it did, horrah! And while things are certainly tighter because I now have to pay tax and a few added bills, the mortgage is still lower than rent and with each payment the mortgage is reduced. I keep a big spreadsheet with each payment on display in the kitchen and I have such peace knowing each payday brings me closer to being mortgage free.
- The children’s hospital where my children receive treatment - the nurse that runs the clinic is like a ray of sunshine for me. She is always available when I need and goes out of her way to help us. She walked me across the hospital when I had to take the children for scary tests and results (the hospital requests both parents are present and if only one, that you bring another key person so that you have emotional support – only I didn’t have anyone else to bring). Kindness and compassion resides at that place and I’m never going to take it for granted.
- Beautiful autumn moments – I recently had the experience of driving in a car with a friend, with light rain falling, the beautiful Autumn leaves glowing and the sun setting. It reminded me how thankful I am to be alive and how beautiful life is.
And there you have it. Yes, things could be easier. But right now, in this state of complete exhaustion, I’m choosing to focus on the abundance of thanks that I know lives inside me.
Wherever you are today, I hope there is thankfulness that meets you there!