Apologies for the quietness – I’ve literally just moved (last week) and had no internet access, am in the midst of three freelance projects, have my volunteer positions and life! I’m hoping all is back to normal this week! I have over 500 posts to catch up on! I’ve set aside Thursday evening to literally read all your wonderful blogs & watch the last ER!!!
This post has been mulling around in my head for quiet a while, do you remember when I shared that I felt like I was lost? I felt I was living some sort of career existence that was expected of me but not what I wanted? It was a long battle in my head and heart about what to do. If I was married and becoming a mother, it would probably be easy to tell people I was down tracking my career in order to spend more time with family etc, as I told people what I was doing many were shocked and surprised – I heard a range of responses from people questioning why I’d go so far in my career at such a young age to turn my back on it, why I didn’t just think of the money etc. But the more I thought about it & prayed about it the more I knew it wasn’t a choice, I had to follow where I felt I was being moved to.
It has been a month now since I finished, early days really and yet already I believe I’m finding out who I am and what I want to be. I’m already dreaming, pondering, reflecting and making decisions. I still need to do work in order to pay bills but I’m only working part time and instead of focusing on growing savings I’m focusing on growing my life & soul. I’m knitting, reading, baking, cooking, walking, swimming, learning and giving. I do not allow my days to revolve around work, it is simply a part of my day! I’ve learned to set limits – for example even when I have a freelance deadline literally days away I do not work Sundays – oh how different to my time in London. I can now focus on other things than deadlines, meetings, conference calls and demands and I now have the confidence and strength to say no when managers try to change the goal posts, boundaries etc.
I now have time to volunteer, become a better friend and grow emotionally and spiritually! These are now more important than seeing my bank statement increase at the end of the month.
It has only been a month and yet I feel like I’ve gained the world.
“There are two ways to live: you can live as if nothing is a miracle; you can live as if everything is a miracle”
- Winston Churchill
I choose the latter, how about you?