Yesterday was a tough day, a day where it seemed impossible to get anything to go right, for anything to be easy. I struggled through the day and then something inside me told me to stop. I need to try to be a more gracious, thankful, appreciative person. I am so blessed, while life is not always so easy, I have so much, so very very much. A few events over the last week have made me realize how blessed I am and I thought I’d share
:: I witnessed a woman who was clearly unable to read/write at the Dr’s yesterday, with a receptionist who made no effort to support the lady and simply told her she will have to take the forms and find someone who can write & bring them back. I would of gladly sat (with hot water bottle in tow!) and filled them out for her, but she ran out as quickly as her legs would carry her. Yes I will be writing a formal complaint letter on her behalf to the NHS & the surgery’s practice manager. How blessed I am to be able to read, write and communicate through speech! I need to use this blessing to help those who are unable.
:: I feel like I was quite snippy with the receptionist, which is very unlike me, but I had just witnessed her unkindness, I felt she was being very unfair towards me. It was as though she felt I was doing something wrong asking to register with a new surgery, when actually due to my move I have to! She would not give me an appointment to see a Dr, despite the hospital saying I had to see one asap so he/she could administer some recommended treatment. She also said that they might not be taking any new patients in the month of May, I said I thought it was April (they had confirmed yesterday they were taking new patients) and she said to me that tomorrow was May and was just so difficult. Where’s the blessing in all this? Well it was wrong of me to get snippy (although I’m not sure she even noticed!) but it was wrong, so the blessing - it was a good reminder to me to have good character even in times of stress & trouble! I may not be able to control other people’s actions, but I can be a good steward in my own actions! What a great blessing that is! Then I had a wonderful surprise, the Dr I eventually was assigned to ended up being a friend I know and trust who was so proactive in getting me help!
:: I watched the story of a little girl in Iraq who was 13 years old, was a little person, and was so badly deformed that she could not even sit or hold up her own head! What pain she must be in, what a life to have to be unable to walk, jump, run, reach for things & toilet oneself. How blessed I am to be able to do all of these, things we take for granted every single day!
:: I am still having bleeding issues, 50+ days at the moment, a great deal of blood loss, and depending on the day there can be a great deal of pain (lower back, uterus, ovaries). But I am so blessed. No Physician can believe I haven’t needed to have a blood transfusion and several are amazed I still have my uterus in tact. Obviously they have now ruled out any minor issues causing this and are moving towards more serious possibilities, but I know I’m not alone. My faith lets me know that while the Lord has never promised me I will not suffer, He will never leave me. When the pain has been at it’s worst (nighttime) and I have called out in agony & fear, I have felt clothed in safety and love. How blessed I am to go through something that has affirmed to me I am never alone. How blessed I am to go through something that makes me know I have a Father in Heaven who will always have the answers, who always has a plan. I know like Joseph, a time of testing comes before fulfillment of a promise. I am so thankful!
::On a practical level, I have been able to swim – something that brings me so much joy, even in this time of pain! How blessed I am that the sport which has brought me so much joy in life, is actually something I can currently enjoy because it actually reduces my pain! Albeit yesterday I had to take a day off, it again reminded me how grateful I am when I am able to swim. So very blessed indeed!
:: I have had two lovely friends from Church constantly check in on me, provide love and support. What a blessing!
Life is not always easy, we are human beings with human desires, it is a constant battle to ensure that our heart’s desires are pure and not based on greed, money or selfishness but instead based on being the best person we can be, with a wise & giving heart. I’m learning that however normal it is to desire a family and a home, those desires should not distract me from being the best person I can be now, from being grateful for what I have now, for that will only help me be the person I want to be in the future and appeciate the blessings I have then. God has a more perfect plan than I could ever imagine! I have so much to be thankful for!
Please remember to pray for one of my dear readers who is facing a hysterectomy today! L you are in my thoughts & prayers!
This probably no help to you but here are two old wives tales relating to bleeding. Stay away from rasberries and strawberries – they increase bleeding. Not sure about that one but this one definitely works for really heavy periods. Take really strong te,possibly with milk but no sugar. Apparently coffee thins the blood but tea helps it to coagulat. This has proven to work with all I know and was proven again just this week with a friend who was leaking everywhere for 11 days then was able to go to work in the afternoon after she had her str ong (2 bags) tea. Wish there was some way I could help you. Revelation 21:3,4 gives hope for the future and I am sure you would love to live in that time. Cherrie
FT I’m so sorry to hear that you’re still not very well! I really hope you get better soon.
I feel your pain about the lack of compassion at the doctors. I was in and out twice a week for a month not long ago and being there used to send my stress levels soaring. I used to grind my teeth the whole time at the service (to me and others) but in the end I told myself that it must be a tough job and maybe that lady behind the desk had a tough day too.
You should also feel blessed that you have such clarity of spirit and heart. It’s such a rare thing. Big hugs x
I’ve just emerged from my desk after an extremely busy couple of weeks at work feeling tired and stressed, and here you are to remind me to think of the good things and be grateful.
I so appreciate this post.
I’m very impressed with your 10 day challenge and I hope that your new doctor will be able to help you towards even better health as soon as possible.
Hi, I’ve been lurking here for a while, and I have really enjoyed reading your blog. I loved this post–it’s so good to be reminded to find the blessings in every circumstance. One thing I’ve been focusing on lately is that if God gives us something, it IS a gift, whether or not we want it or like it or anything. And sometimes his gifts are NOT what we want. Seeing it as a gift and a blessing makes it easier. I don’t know you–I don’t even know your name, but I am praying for you.
Allyson
gor, sorry to hear of your troubles. It must be so hard to keep chipper when you are in pain. xx
Thinking of you, FT. It’s wonderful that you are aware of the blessings you have, it’s so good, to be grateful… I hope that you’ll get better soon.
Thinking of you, FT! It is so amazing to me how you keep your positive outlook no matter what. You inspire me more than you’ll ever know. My participation in the challenge has been off track but I’m slowly trying to get my head back in the game. Take good care of yourself!
I recently read a devotion that has really stuck with me and probably will forever. It explained that when we offer up our thanks and praise in difficult times it constitutes a sacrifice on our part…the sacrifice of logic and pride…and that God is honored and pleased not only by our thanks and praise, but by our act of sacrifice in so doing.
I love your attitude, FT. I’m sure there’s is One who is smiling on you.
And for L…you are in my prayers. I’ve just gone through it, and so I feel for you. Stand and move every 30 minutes or so…I moved, but waited too long in between and I ended up with a blood clot that travelled to my lungs. So don’t over do it…no lifting! But do keep the blood pumping. May you heal well and quickly.
I knew you were having health issues, but I feel they are more prominent than contended. I pray and hope that you will get well very soon! I am glad that you are able to swim. And I am glad the Dr is a friend there to help you.
Thank you for showing us the things we can be gracious for in our daily lives.
Many prayers to you and your friend having surgery today.
A friend of mine just had surgery because she has infertility issues as well and struggling to conceive she was bleeding for awhile and the surgery reviled a mass that was blocking her fallopian tube and it’s not cancerous they found out today but still…have you looked into the surgery to stop bleeding?
P.S. Are you using a menstrual cup? They’re brilliant!
Though I only know you through your blog, I feel as though I know you very well. You are a truly good person. Take care.
In the morning my head often works better than I at night. As soon as I got up I remembered that your situation was dealt with by Jesus during his time on earth. Please read Matthew 18:19-22. All of Jesus miracles while on earth illustrate the power he will show when his kingdom has full dominion over the entire earth. Isn’t it wonderful to know that he even cares about women’s problems such as you experience?!! Cherrie
My dear,
Sprint, do not walk to your computer and write that complaint letter. Be as matter of fact as you can. Use what my family calls “grad school English.” The receptionist should not have treated either of you that way…and you’re right, if you do not speak up on that lady’s behalf, no one else will. (Because they did not witness what you did. And will the lady do it for herself? Of course not! She can’t write anything!)
Thankfully you are hanging in there…I’m guessing that extra protein you’re consuming has helped with not needing a transfusion. Do they do what’s called an “oblation” over there? I had a lot of bleeding problems a few years ago — to the point where I could stand up and literally gush through everything in a few minutes. This involves scraping your uterus…it minimizes period problems thereafter. The bad part: if you can have children, this makes it very difficult. My kids are in their 20s, and I was long past this part. I’m not sure you’re feeling this way…
This procedure, though, literally changed my life.
I care about you, and will be praying. Hang in there.
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Hi, interesting post. I have been pondering this issue,so thanks for writing. I’ll definitely be coming back to your posts.
What a lovely post.
I’m so pleased to hear you have friends checking in on you now. Isn’t it funny how things can turn around? Did you ask for help or did these ladies recognize your need?
*HUGS* & Healing vibes being set your way.
Hi, good post. I have been wondering about this issue,so thanks for blogging. I’ll certainly be coming back to your site. Keep up the good posts
Sorry to hear about your pain
I understand what you are going through though; I bled for almost 4 months non-stop. Luckily for me there was little pain, and it wasn’t always very heavy.
Even so I became severely anemic. Watch your iron levels
good luck and keep thinking positive!