It has been, by all accounts, a rough week or so, with 5 cysts bursting!!! I’m home now and in a nutshell my estrogen levels had plummeted after the cysts meaning very stiff fingers & joints, constant nausea & the most bazaar dreams. Here’s a taster.
That song is becoming a fast favourite!!
The dreams are random, but I wake up feeling like I’ve had an adventure – usually an exciting one, like the time I saved a woman who was drowning, or the time I lost my shoes and in searching for them found a woman who was battered. There are dreams about people, exercising, climbing mountains, loads about swimming – although I’ve yet to find those sock fish in the video, maybe they’ll make an appearance tonight. There are dreams where I’m sure I’m waking up with someone (snuggling, nothing more ;0) ) only to find I’m in the same place on the right hand side of my bed usually with the cat cuddled up on my right. But I was sure someone was there, we went fishing, walking, climbing together. Only we didn’t. It always takes several minutes upon waking to figure out if my memory is what I did recently or was a dream. Last night I was sure I was camping in a pink tent under the stars, I woke up in my bed and said how on earth did I get here from the campground? Needless to say sometimes I’m disappointed, other times relieved.
But with all this comes a level of exhaustion while still flutters of peace, tranquility and a new thing, stillness. My goal for the next month, as my meds double, is to find moments each and every day to be still. While it is good to accomplish things and I always feel better when I’ve done so it is more important to practice stillness. When I look at this picture below that I took in Exmouth I’m reminded to sit more, pray more, reflect more, empty my mind more, breathe more and do less.
And that big announcement? Well I have 1 more phone call to make this afternoon (sorry it all got pushed back in a 5 cysts bursting kind of way!) and then I will update this post with it! It sure is exciting!
My new post is up at the co-op!
Can’t wait to catch up on all your news, I will this week (plus respond to your emails) I promise – I’m sorry I feel like a very 1 sided blogger at the moment! Hope I’m forgiven 
Hiya FT, good to see you back, hope you aren’t in too much pain from the cysts bursting. Good to hear you sound in quite good spirits considering what you are going through.
Best wishes and hugs Babs xx
yes, have missed your lovely posts. welcome back. hope you are feeling ok. looking forward to hearing the news!
Just a quick question, I have PCOS and don’t have all these things that you have, infact they told me the total opposite. I know a few others as well who have it and they to were told differently from you as well. For one, the crystals are just dead eggs that haven’t gone through etc, so they form crystals and don’t burst??????? Am rather concered after hearing about what is wrong with you, with your diet and your bone and joint pains as well, none of this comes into it. There are side effects but nothing like this at all. Take care fiona
What a beautiful photo. We ought to go to Exmouth – it’s so close. Your planned daily routine – quiet and prayer is excellent. Good luck with it.
I’m so glad you are back! Take good care of yourself.
Maria
((HUGS)) You take all the time you need to heal and rest. Nice to see you post though. Dreams~some can be quite doozies! I like the nice ones when I wake up calm and content, not oh my goodness, where am I? I’m off to read your post at the co-op. Take care, Heather
Take care of yourself! Good to see you back.
Wow, you have really been through it! Take care. You are a really strong woman.
Try Oren Lavie’s On the Opposite side of the sea. That’s my favorite!
Glad to hear you’re feeling better!
I’m really glad you are ok! I’ve missed your posts.
I’m looking forward to hearing your good news. Take care.
Hi there-what a tough time for you, I do wish you a speedy recovery my dear.
I am truly sorry for the rough time you’ve been having and wish there could be a more permanent solution. I am glad to have a new post to read from you because you are quite inspiring.
Beautiful photo of Exmouth … glad that you are feeling well enough to blog…. awaiting your big announcement!
Yippee – you’re back! I hope you are over the worst of it and that a spot of R n R will do the trick. A lot of folk here have missed you…
No apology needed for lack of posting…. really sorry you were so sick
Glad to have you back, canèt wait to hear your news!
Take care…
You have been missed! Glad you are on the mend!
Sorry to hear that you’re still not feeling well – it must be horrendous to have 5 cysts burst at once. Give yourself time to recover and don’t worry about getting things done.
I hope everything is going well for the preparations for your announcement. I am intrigued….
Oh I can’t hold on any longer – what’s your news!?!?
really good to see you back FT
You poor thing, my thoughts are with you
Hi Hun *hugs you* What a crazy time you are having. I hope the nice stuff with the dreams keeps coming! I can’t remember the last time I had a dream. Hope you’re feeling much better soon!!
Praying for you!
hope you are on the mend, the cysts are so painful! take care and rest up ((hugs))